subsomatic

A small tribute today

I realized over the last few months that I think too much. I don’t mean this in a conceided “I’m so smart and self aware” kind of way. It’s actually becoming a serious problem. I can’t turn my brain off. By the end of the day, all I ever want to do is pick up my book or throw a movie on because I’m so frustrated and exhaused mentally that I don’t want to think about doing work, or trying to focus myself. I’m not sure how to resolve the problem. I went through a phase where I just thought I needed someone to talk to, but I’m worried that rather than feeling cathartic after getting it all out, it might be more like re-listening to the song you have stuck in your head all day, where it just get itself re-stuck. 

I’m sure there’s some kind of mental illness out there that describes what I’m going through, but I don’t really much care for classification. What I do need is a solution.

There has been far too much emotional upheaval this week. I’m going to try my best not to think about any of it for the next few weeks. My brain is tired.

It’s late, and I’m drunk, but I know better than to be feeling angry….

Yeah, I’m going to go ahead and declare this the hottest picture ever.

This woman has mothered me in ways she will never realize.

Yup. Totally numb. It’s like I don’t know how to feel anymore.

You allude me…

She said “Hey. How do you do?”